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Tuesday, February 15, 2011
the very best day
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Sunday, February 14, 2010
day 45: love, sweet love
Saturday, January 9, 2010
day 9: snuggle time
my favorite time of the day (is actually in the evening)...
Friday, January 8, 2010
day 8: the writing's in the snow
ignore my photoshop laziness...i love this one:
my honey wrote me a message in the snow today before he came in from work:
Thursday, October 8, 2009
Open Ending
I guess it wasn't very nice to ask you to play a guessing game with me and then leave you hanging for 3 weeks (or however long it's been), was it?
If you guessed that our house was for sale, you were right!
I had waited to blog about it until I was pretty sure things were well on the way. It's funny how you can be so sure of something one day, and have it all change the next.
We had put a contract on a house we came across online and had fallen in love with. It was contingent on the selling of our house, with a closing date of November 10th. We were getting more web hits and having more showings than any other house in our price range by far. Our projected turnaround time was 7-11 days...
Two days before we were due to go on vacation, our realtor called to say the other house had another contract offer, which gave us 72 hrs to come up with a solution. The only solution for us was to sell our current house(vs likely getting stuck with 2 mortgage payments). It didn't happen.
It was hard to lose that house. Really hard. I let myself believe it was ours. I saw the Christmas tree in the bay window and heard my children's tiny feet pitter pattering up and down the stairs. I imagined long, hot baths in the claw foot tub and hours of sewing in the "closet" in the master bedroom that was as big as another bedroom. I looked forward to evenings watching my children play outside while relaxing with my husband on the wrap around porch.
It was hard to let that all go, but I knew I had to.
I had been really frustrated because I had prayed that it wouldn't get this far if it wasn't meant to be. I kept praying, and He was silent. I felt so disappointed and let down, but at the same time I knew that He has never let me down before. It was very confusing...but something wonderful happened.
He spoke to me through my husband. Jason was able to lead me through this and to help me let go. I've always been a skeptic, always as self-reliant as possible. I've grown in leaps in bounds since being married. I'm no longer Miss Independent but still like to know what's going on. In this situation I had no clue and had to rely on my husband to fully and lovingly lead me through.
It has transformed things between us. It turned an already wonderful marriage into something even greater.
He leads with a confidence I've never seen. I follow in a way I've never known. I have a new respect for him, and he for me.
We still don't know what we're going to do. Our house remains unsold, and my heart has yet to be won by another house. We're seeking wisdom as to whether or not to keep our house on the market or pull it off. Our main hesitation at this point is taking it off only to find that the other financing fell through which would put us back in first place for the other house. Thankfully, He always gives wisdom--but prayers from you wouldn't hurt, either. ;)
"You can't always get what you want, but if you try sometimes,well you just might find, you get what you need..."
Or even better than the Rolling Stones, is a place of contentment I've come to--
"I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want." --Philippians 4:12
Even if we never have a beautiful old Victorian home, we have what we need right here. And if "all" that comes from this was a transforming facet in my marriage, then I say it is well worth it.
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Labels: God, Introspection, Marriage
Monday, July 20, 2009
3 Years Ago Today...
walk down the aisle to my future husband.
At last, it was time.
Enya's "Fairytale" began to play,
and I watched my flower girls create the path that
I would soon be following.
As I walked barefoot down the aisle,
my Dad had to slow me down.
I was ready.
U2's "Beautiful Day" carried us back down the aisle,
and this time, it was my husband slowing me down.
I was ready to run away with him.
I was so thrilled-
"We did it! We're married!"

That night, we stopped by a gas station to get
something to drink before settling in for the night.
I couldn't help myself as the cashier rang us up--
"We just got married!"
It didn't matter that he didn't share our excitement.
I was married. I was someone's wife.
Jason's wife.
I am even happier and even more in love with you
today than I was the day we were married.
It just keeps getting better.
Thank you, with all of my heart.
*Small claim to fame--the last one was on the homepage
of our photographer's website for 2 years!
*All pictures by:www.creativeexposuresphotography.net
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Labels: Marriage
Saturday, January 19, 2008
Thankful
In the midst of minor (read-NORMAL) chaos, I had to stop and write. Jason is working at the hospital tonight in the ER for his EMT class. He's been going to class two nights a week for the past two weeks for 4 hours each night. It's been a tough transition. Sydney misses her Daddy, and I miss my husband. He'll be finished sometime in April...
I was thinking tonight how I would hate to be a single mom. The girls aren't feeling well, especially Ali, and it's exhausting trying to keep them both satisfied and attempt to have my sanity intact at the end of the day. It makes me so thankful for Jason. I don't know if I was fully aware of how much he helps. Just having "someone on your team" to help field the discipline and having him to lean on makes all the difference. He still helps inbetween work, school, and homework...and that means a lot. I'm very blessed to have such a wonderful husband--and I need to make sure to tell him when he comes home. I know it's just as hard if not harder on him being gone so much, but I'm so proud of him. He's pursuing his dream to be a firefighter, and is doing so well.
Thanks for working so hard, honey. I love you.
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